So, I spent the night thinking about life. My daughters mostly. She is growing & changing so fast, it's hard to believe she's only been her for 8 short months. There are so many things that she will see, do & experience. I can't wait to be a part of all those things.

Thinking about that, I realize I need to change a few things in my life to do my best to be around for all those things my daughter will experience. I am not the healthiest person, so I've decided to make a lifestyle change. I need to take better care of myself. If I can't take care of me, how can I take care of my daughter and future children. So starting today I am making a promise to myself & daughter to eat healthier & become more active. I think being active will be the hardest part. Sure I chase around an 8 month old all day, but I need more exercise. I can come up with the best excuses in the world to blow off exercise, but today that stops.

Any support or tips will be welcomed. Some people might think I'm crazy for making this change right before the holidays but if I can make it through Thanksgiving and Christmas, the new year should be a piece of cake. (not that I will eat the cake)

I am going to take this 10 pounds at a time so I don't get over welmed. I will keep you updated on my progress, and so you can see the change I've made over the last 5 years, I am posting a before and after.

Before


After


Thanks for listening,

SM

Update - PB&ME

So, it's been awhile since i've blogged. Let's see if I can catch you up on all the stuff that's been going on.

P - she is getting so big. She changes on a daily basis. Her hair is getting thicker. She stands up and balances her self for a few seconds before she falls. She pushes me away when I'm holding her because all she wants to do is get down and play. She hates to be held like a baby. She is eating Cheerios, and diced fruit now, which she LOVES. She realizes there are strangers and brown people now. She absolutely loves other children. She says a few babbles, but I'm still waiting on "mama" and she has learned to shake her head no. She has also gotten in a routine of only being able to fall asleep in my bed at night. So when she falls asleep I have to wrap her up in her blankie and put her in her own bed, but she usually ends up right back in my bed around 4am because I'm too tired to fight her. So I let her win. Friday she went to her first movie. Well, really her second but she was so yound the first time she slept through the entire movie. We went to see Madagascar with my mom, sister & brother. She jumped up and down in my lap the whole time. She was all over the place. I couldn't keep her still and she managed to scream "dada" everytime the theatre got quiet. I spent the last 20 minutes of the movie standing up in by the entrance just to keep her calm. Her next trip to the movies won't be until she is about 2 or 3. I don't think I could go through that again.

B - He's still my fedex/police man. Working his ass off for fedex, waiting for all the holiday hours to kick in soon. Protecting & serving the community when he gets a few hours off here and there and spending time with me & P. We have all sorta gotten in a routine. Sundays are usually our days together just the three of us, since the rest of the week is so crazy. We have been window shopping, looking at property & houses and doing things around the house.

Me - As far as me, it's just been the same things. Working and trying to be the best mother/wife I can be. I've been so tired lately. I can't finish one thing with out another thing needing attention. Like K says in her blog.....I need a cleaning lady but one that does laundry too. I've been stressed with all the shit going on with my family business. So, I hope all that is taken care of soon. Someone has pissed me off royally, actually make that two people. I can't stand when people say stupid shit and think it won't make it's way back to me. So if they actually make it to the holiday functions it should be interesting. I've already confronted the issue but something tells me thats not the end of it. To think that at one point I actually took up for these two. Now I feel the same as everyone else. Enough about that, my bloodpressure is going up just thinking about it. I am trying to get my Christmas shopping started but I'm keeping the list short and sweet this year, immediate family and the children (of course)only. And maybe a few gift stealing gifts.

I think I've gone on long enough. Check back later in the week for more.

SM